I need someone to talk to. I've had friends out here, and most of them are stationed in okinawa. My husband has been suicidal for months as a result of PTSD, and I don't know what to do anymore. Today he told me to keep my phone on me because the cops were going to call me, and refused to tell me why. I looked at his facebook and he was asking people how high a jump would have to be fatal. I got out of the house and tried getting in the car to calm him down, but he refused to let me in and took my phone. i had a family member get a hold of his psychiatrist at the mental health clinic, and they are supposed to have the cops pick him up. I just feel so helpless, like it's my fault that he has to resort to this. 

Call military one source and ask to speak with a counselor. Or the d-stress hotline. They should be able to point you in the right direction. You can google them both for contact info 

Better yet, here is the number
For crisis support, those in the U.S. call 800-273-8255, then press 1. 

I hear that things like this can get really bad when they suffer from PTSD. Sometimes involuntary domestic violence could break out too. I agree with AnonyMISS and seek help asap. I will be praying, but seriously, don't let him scare you. Do whatever it takes to keep yourself safe and to help him. Again, you are in my prayers and he too. Keep us posted. My email is anniray.3@gmail.com if you want to talk more. 

The had mps escort him to barracks, will go from there. Tons of issues to deal with when he comes home, and he's never been violent while awake, so I appreciate the prayers and thoughts. Just needed to let loose some steam before everything exploded. 

My husband is one of the ones who had DV problems as a result of PTSD and not knowing how to deal with it. Please, and I mean this is a nice way not a snarky way, do not call it involuntary domestic violence. While it's extremely unfortunate that there are times they honestly can not control themselves, you can not put the word "involuntary" on it. They HAVE to take responsibility for their actions and part of that is receiving help to know what to do to prevent that from happening. No matter what they have suffered, there is a point in which they are still in control enough to stop whatever it is they are doing and walk away and do whatever cool down method works for them and they are responsible for doing so. When we put terms like "involuntary" on it, we make it sound like it's something we have to just except with happen and not hold them accountable. That is false. PTSD is a reason, not an excuse. 

That is false. PTSD is a reason, not an excuse.
Thank you, Malieficent, that is true. I struggle with anger issues, but I don't want to get it diagnosed or take meds for it (yet), because I don't want that to be my crutch. Before Christmas I was talking to a counselor for help, and even though I didn't find it very helpful, I got to go back again. I know I can take control of this and you are so right. 

It's a process. I won't pretend it's easy. I hope you find something that works for you though. I know for my husband it was getting into a hobby where he could take his aggression out. He loves Brazilian Ju Jitsu and Krav Maga. (Im sure I spelled those wrong) The most satisfying part about both of those is that when he was at his worst, he was a bully. Honestly, that's what it was. He used the fact that he was bigger and stronger than me to bully me when he lost his temper. He has a huge ego and being good at his job feeds into that as well. So for him to go into those classes where he wasn't the best and to get put in his place- that was good for him. To see him come home with a bruise, busted lip, etc here and there- that was good for me. I know that sounds bad but Im just being honest and he totally understands why I feel that way. 

PTSD is a reason, not an excuse.

^^ I completely AGREE ^^

I don't want to get it diagnosed or take meds for it (yet), because I don't want that to be my crutch

You may possibly not need meds. I've been diagnosed with PTSD, GAD, and OCD. With an extensive time of continuous visits (started with 1x a week to now once every 2 weeks ) with my psychologist I've managed my 'disorders' w/o any medications. My husband is VERY involved in my 'treatment'. He attends ALL my psych visits and even has my psychologist personal cell phone number for when (in the beginning of my 'treatment') I'd trigger and I'd go downhill. 

Mine tried medication at the beginning (diagnosed PTSD with uncontrolled rage, and OCD) Most of the medications made him worse. He would seriously see things or perceive things, rather. Like if we were arguing he would see you as smiling like you were laughing at him which naturally made him more angry. He does well right now without regular counseling but when his work starts getting stressful or something starts getting out of whack, he goes. 

Why was he taken to the barracks and not the hospital? If he is suicidal, he should have been placed on a psych hold while they evaluate him, correct the dosage of or prescribe any meds etc.

Just sending him to the barracks, and then back home won't change anything. 

Yeah, my husband is seriously considering getting a punching bag for me in the garage. Dang! That would feel good! 

I'm just frustrated with the whole thing. His doctor at the mental clinic cleared him to be home, but they put him on lock down. So now our car, our cashier's checks for rent, all of my ids, and my cell are at the barracks and there's no way to get them. I'm going crazy, I'm supposed to be having surgery in a week; and all this stress is killing me. I also found our, through our phones being synced, he started messaging an old 'friend' he had back home and they've been sending each other pictures and talking about how he deserves someone that will love him unconditionally and supports him always. I feel like crap, and I have no idea what to do. 

Definitely call military one source. Call the command (the OOD) and they can help get your stuff for you. 

How is everything, Leigh? 

It's going. They're trying to get his stuff pushed into WW, and get his med board put through as quick as possible. His unit let him home, but said if anything happened like this again he's in the barracks until he EASs. We talked everything through, he says the girl is a friend from home and he didn't notice that she was wearing her underwear in the pictures. (My husband is an oblivious man, it took him 2 weeks to realize that I was interested) I'm letting him off the hook, but I made sure to tell him that what happened was unacceptable. 

Boundaries are good!

It took us years to figure out Dh had PTSD from a really bad accident he had 20+ years ago (before we even met) He'd have nightmares, would just shut down sometimes. We hadn't heard of PTSD back then so I just attributed his behavior to immature mind games. We had a serious falling out over it and I told him it had to stop or he was out of our lives (I have kids from a previous marriage) He stopped but it still took some time for that occasional "I'm a bad a$$ and I will do what I want" attitude to completely disappear.